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ari ni ntah nape, terasa mcm nk tngok blog yg lg 1, tp saya lupe pwordnye ape.. then i tred to recall the blog, and then, tadaaaaaa.. dh ble bace.. tp x syok sbb ade 2blog, susah nk manage.. that's why i decided to copy the content into this blog, but haven't started yet.. wait aaaaa.. i'll try nnti2.. :)

hmm.. pg td mse nk dtg sini, i almost met an accident.. everyday, i take +-20 min from my home sweet home to my workplace.. skang ni, jln tu dh ok, jln 2 lanes.. at some parts, die akn jd 3lanes sbb bg laluan utk keta yg buat u-turn.. tibe dkt 1 part ni, ade satu kete viva putih, die dr lane kiri, saya lane tengah, and there was another car on the right lane yg bru je ps buat u-turn.. si viva putih ni,bg signal, trus msuk lane tengah, tanpa tengok cermin sisi pn saya rse, saya hmpir langgar bontot die, tekan brek, sreeeeeeeeeeeeeeettttttttt bunyi.. huh! xpuas ati btol.. nsib smpat brek.. pastu saya usha die, ble die usha saya blik.. the driver was a woman, and there was a man beside her at the passenger's seat.. saya potong die, pstu saya smpat tngok gune cermin pndang blakang, she took the right lane, and drove with a speed of 40km/h saya rase.. berbijik2 kete yg potong si viva ni gune lane kiri.. i do think that org mcm ni, menyumbang kpd kemalangan jgak w/pon org kata bwak slow lg elok dr bwak laju.. slow btempat la.. klu nk slow, dok belah kiri, org pn xmarah.. saya pn skang ni cuba nak bhemah d jalanraya, dh x speeding sgt cam dlu2.. klu saya slow, saya akn cube utk bg laluan pd kete yg lg laju.. tolerate, tu je snanye..

it's march 2012, and this is my 1st post this year! hah, sgt suke btangguh.. 2011 went well for me.. 2012, hopefully it will be better.. last year, abi, me & aqim went for a trip, from kl to putrajaya to kedah to perak to jerteh and then to our hometown, ganu kite.. the trip was a family trip actually, ma&ayah&moksu&ayohcik yg sgt sporting.. singgah menyinggah di umah adik beradik, sgt happening.. i'll post the pics some other time (lg btangguh, the pics are not with me rite now)..

oh, and aqim celebrated his 1st bday three times: 1) on 28/12/11 at maklong&ayahlong's place with a requested non-chocolate cake from maklong-blueberry cheese cake, 2) on 31/12/11 at a hotel in jerteh due to heavy rain on our way home with makann tapau yg lupe nk ambik sudu and tpaksa mkn guna sudu susu aqim hehe & ade bunga api la mlm tu, special weyh, 3) on 5/1/12 at aqim's aduhai sayang nursery with a choc cake made by kak diah, dadih made by ummi(it's me!) & kudap2an utk anak2 nursery packed with the help of abi & ade sesetengahnya sponsored by acik mas(thank u, thun dpn taja lg k) & kueytiaw made by ibu2 angkat aqim:liza, nurul, pn aisyah & nija.. sume abih, Alhamdulillah..

this year, i'm planning to be consistent in what i do & try my best to be a hot wifey super mommy!! (credit to u, darl) and also a great teacher hafizah(GTH!!).. hehhe.. i'll try to post pics k.. profile pic tu dh x valid.. heheh..

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if only i did this better.. if only i can be like her.. if only.. if only..
sejujurnya, kebelakangan ni, ade beberapa kali tdetik dlm ati bnde2 cmni.. sometimes, it makes me feel as if i am not grateful for what i have.. Ya Allah, jauhkanlah hatiku dr perasaan ini..

~2 yrs~

it's been 2 yrs, and here i am.. being blessed with a loving husband and an adorable son.. apa kbaikan yg saya dh lakukan sehingga saya dirahmati sebegini rupa oleh Allah Yang Maha Esa? soalan yg salah! Allah tidak pernah pilih kasih thadap umatNya, kita yg slalu pilih kasih thadap Dia..

sejujurnya, saya lupa kewujudan blog saya ini sehinggalah saya tergerak hati utk membuka kembali email saya yg lama.. Ya Allah, memang saya btol2 lupa sehinggakan saya telahpun mbuka satu lagi blog baru, yg mne agk lme juga saya tglkan.. nape saya ble tergerak hati? do not ask me that, because i don't have the answer either.. mgkin utk mengingatkn saya ttg dri saya yg sebenarnya..

dan sejujurnya juga, saya bru mbaca komen yg sahabat saya hantar 2 thun yg lepas.. hahha.. i was smiling alone while reading her msg.. thanks darl.. :)

and my azam is, to blog myself here, at least to make myself at ease.. so hafizah jaiyidah, pls b consistent.. cayo chaiyokkkk!!

~ i'm trying..... ~

after what happened these past few days, i felt something that is difficult for me to explain.. looking at bak while he was sleeping, was a 'kesyahduan' for me.. at that moment, i scold myself for not being a good daughter for my one and only father.. dh bpe kali aku punahkan harapan bak, dan bak sllu bsedia memaafkn aku.. and every single time, i was given another chance.. npe aku sllu x alert ngn harapan, hati dan prasaan ma ngn bak..? the answer is simple.. sbb aku x bsungguh.. and i really hope that i would be able to be better for my parents, InsyaAllah.. *i'mtryingtobebetter*

~ bila kita rse idop ni x adil............ ~

pernah x tjadi, ujan trun lebat sgt, tp korg lupe bawak payung. sudahnye, korg pun basah kuyup, sejuk xyah ckap la.. tapi, time korg dah ready dh pakai baju hujan, dh de bnyi guruh dh pun, tp ttibe je, panas terik plak. frust x korg?

lg 1 scene.. korg nk g kje ni, dh lmbat, tkan mnyak smpai rapat, tapi trip korg selalu terhalang.. time ni la, tiap traffic lite yg korg lalu, sume merah.. kebetuln plak, de lori tanah kt dpan kete korg.. jap2 korg tkan mnyak, jap2 kne tkn brek.. dh la nk cpat, tension lg.. yg pliknye, mse korg rse nk drive slow2 je, nk sentimental sket smbil lyn lagu, org len plak dok tekan hon, mntak korg cpat sbb jln 1 lane.. korg rse skit ati x?

agak2 korg, npe ek cmtu? npe len yg kite nk, len yg jdi? kdg2 smpai kite pikir, x adil sguh idop ni kt kite..

snang nye, nnti, klu2 len kali korg terpikir lg cmni, korg cbe ltak situasi ni dlm sudut positif.. pikir, tu cre alam entertain kite. tu cre alam ajak kita senyum, gelakkan diri kite sdiri dan bergurau scre nyata. Kejengkelan itu ade sbb kite tak cuba adapt ngan keadaan. kite cme pentingkan diri sdiri. kite lupe 1 bnde, klu keinginan kite x tcapai, x bmakne ape yg blaku tu buruk ksannye ke atas kite.. mungkin de hikmahnye npe jdi cmtu.. tak ada salahnya kite wat slambe je, dal lg best, kte snyum je wlaupun stakat snyum tawar.. *imtryingreallyhard*

~ i feel goooooooodddddddd.. ~ ~winkwink~

i feel gooooooooodddddd.. hehe.. ari ni aku rse happy lak, don't really know why, tapi aku rse best.. **grateful** my students today, they really know how to please me.. i'm happy with them, and though i felt a bit awkward teaching these "adults" at first, but they make me feel comfortable.. rse cm dorg sekepale ngn aku.. dan aku arap, sepanjang sem ni, i won't be having any problem with them..

and, i'm thinking of starting a business on my own.. haven't decided yet what kind of business i'm supposed to involve.. mungkin yg aku pn dh consume, sbb klu ble, aku nk bisnes bnde yg memang aku dh rse kesannye.. hmm.. ape ek..? **thinking**