~ love is subjective ~

the smile on your face lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
the touch of your hand says you catch me wherever i fall
you say it best when you say nothing at all

what is love actually? mse aku mude rmaje dlu, aku sllu mbayangkan cinta, sayang, kasih dan yg sewaktu dgn nye, adalh sesuatu yg perlu diungkapkan, sesuatu yg perlu ditunjukkan di khalayak scre maksimum.. entah npe, agaknye sbb aku lurus sgt kot time tu.. hehe.. *mkemlu*

mse dh blalu, dan serentak dgn itu, usia aku pn btmbah.. and then i realized that i'm almost 26!! *xcye* at the age of 26, aku sdar yg aku ni masih lgi manje ngn ma+bak.. dan bak ngan ma pon masih lagi mlayan prangai aku ni, as if i'm 18.. hehe.. care ma+bak layan aku, itulah yg dikatakan kasih sayang yg xde tolok bandingnye.. and now i'm trying to express my love towards them, in a way that nobody can understand, not even me.. *blur*

ma+bak, jah sayang sgt ma+bak, sehingga ke akhirnye!!

after a short while.. (short? muahahaha..)

it's been like.. mm.. a month since my last post.. hehe.. lots of things happened, and it changed my life, in positive way.. *happy*

i'm now trying to improve myself in term of patience.. i think that i should be more patient, especially when driving.. haha! hopefully, by the end of this year, i manage to do that.. *winking*

a week of dot.. dot.. dot..

it has been such a busy week.. bru menyewa lbih kurang 3bulan, air plak kne potong.. imagine what i felt when i came back from work, knowing that there's no water.. kecepush! rse cam nk mjerit je.. pemilik rumah ni mmang agak sukar nak b'urusan, but aku x sangke smpai cmni skali.. then my housemates and i decided that we should look for a new house.. mcari ni 1 hal lgi.. cri punye cri, dapat 1 umah, dan syukur, lagi elok dr umah sbelumnya, dan sewa yg lagi murah.. hehe.. and last night was the first night i slept at the new house.. proses pemindahan tu dlm proses.. Allah permudahkan kami, walaupun tahap stamina dah hampir x de dah, asyik bkejar ke sane sni.. nak blik ari ni pn xlrat, so i decided that i will go home tomorrow lah.. nk drive 5jam tu, nk kne ckup tdo lu.. ehehe.. feel sleepy rite now, sb tu layan prasaan je.. **grateful**

Sneezing

not feeling well today.. asyik bersin je dr pg td.. hope that i'll be okay by noon.. mm.. mood pon kurang jdnye.. ni tgh pujuk dri sdri, x nak bnde ni pengaruh aku sgt.. hehe..

seronok + puas ati = idop bahgie **winkwink**

sronoknye rse ari ni!! hehe.. rse cam puas ati sgt2, rse cam pe yg aku wat x sie2..

now is one of the best moment i've ever had.. i finally understand how to handle my students.. and today, i can see that they have changed.. it's a satisfaction, real satisfaction.. x tau nak gambarkan cmne, rse tharu pon de.. hehe.. sentimental la plak.. *winkwink* there was a time when a student of mine came to me, and he told me this: "cik, mintak restu berkat ilmu.." i was stunned, and i actually asked him to repeat that.. speechless.. airmate pon dah bgenang dah time tu.. all i can say is xpe, saye sentiase doakan kamu.. the whole day, i felt really2 appreciated..

i used to have a problem in communicating with my students.. aku rase mcm susah nak sesuaikn dri ngn budak2 ni, jarak umo pn xbanyak beza ngn aku.. i didn't know how to treat them.. ade satu kejadian yg mne aku hampir nak nangis, sbb aku rse cam susah sgt nk paham dorg.. tu blom lagi time dorg x anta assignment, time dorg x denga pe yg aku aja kat depan, time dorg membalas balik ape yg aku cakap.. kadang2 smpai mgeletar tangan, smpai panas rse muke bile tahan marah.. tpi lama kelamaan, aku pikir, kalau dorg x ble ikut rentak aku, bia aku je la yg ikut rentak dorg.. and Alhamdulillah, i managed to understand them, dan aku ble rse yg dorg nye response lgi bes dr awal2 dlu.. hehe.. smbil2 paham dorg, aku try tegur dorg sket2, psl attitude, psl bahasa dorg.. and i think that they started to change..

the value is.. tolerate more, and you'll get the satisfaction.. tpi dlm tolak-ansur tu, perlu ade gak tegas nye.. and for my students, thank you for helping me in understanding you.. *appreciated*

I'm happy

a fresh start.. hehe.. feeling happy, maybe for having enough sleep last night (overdose, actually..).. skang tgh layan lagu bryan adams, feel je.. haha.. tetibe terpikir plak psl diri sendiri.. i'm grateful.. when i look back to the time when i was younger, i've never thought that i would be at this stage.. bukan la kate aku mcapai sume yg aku nak, but life is much much more better now.. there are things that i've accomplished already, and that really satisfies me.. **smilingalone**